Hi fellas.
It's been a while since I posted a long one, and I thought you should hear how thing goes. I keep discovering new things about myself all the time. Things I have to think more upon to try and change them. For instance I've found out that I try immensively hard to be Mr. Perfect for my girlfriend. Everything that bothers me, things that I worry about, are things that are completely obselete, but I still worry about them because I want to be as perfect as possible. No single person can be perfect, and I don't know why I try so hard to be. Perhaps it's because I'm afraid to loose her, perhaps it's a futile attempt to avoid confrontation, perhaps it's something else. All I know is that I'm not perfect, and the fact that I dwell so much on that aspect, worsens things. Not that things are bad between us, not at all, but when I talk to her about somethings I've been thinking about, she feels sad that I enlarge the problems when there's no reason to. And I completely understand her. If she constantly worried about being good enough, I would also be troubled and feel irritated and sorry for her. I don't really know how to surpass this issue, since it's a hardcoded part of me, but it's a part of me that I don't her to worry about. Besides, it's a part of me that I could easily spare

It gives me a friggin headache :xgrin:
Well, not exactly a long one, but still I got rid of some thoughts, and that's the point of it all. Now I must rest my tired eyes, or else I end up looking like an 80 year old when I'm 30

Have a nice day to all of you.
-rizzo
Ronin: Yeah OOTS is really great if you've been playing BG or the likes. I love the series