PS: I would also like to see the role / mechanics information and the night actions.
I'll be formatting the night action list for ease of viewing on the forum and putting them up.
The complete role / mechanics list seems like a bit much to dump into a post, but I may pass it along if it will be useful in helping me do a better job the next time. I've had a realtime conversation with several people already and gotten a pretty solid feel for what was problematic and I think I've got a pretty significant amount of really genuinely caring and helpful feedback.
Given your earlier comments concerning you and "Some of you may" knowing my "true character", and your refusal to respond and let me know what it is I've done to upset you to the point that you have such a low view of me or to allow me to try and make amends, I think we've got some mending fences to do before anything else. Whatever it is was enough for you to air it in this thread, so I'm confused why you seem unwilling to let me know what I've done and give me a chance to own it, answer for it, apologize for it, and try to start fresh.
I fear that until we can clean an already dirty slate, sending you the complete source document and notes for what everyone already agrees was a flawed first game by me would merely give you a platform from which to further publicly attack and humiliate me, as if I weren't already embarrassed that my first big game went so poorly. I think for the most part the folks who played the game have done a fantastic job pointing out what they didn't like and how I can fix that in the future, and I'll do my best to make the most of that feedback. If we can take whatever it is I've done to offend you so deeply and resolve it in private, I would very much value your thoughts on some of the mechanics and ideas that both made it into the game and didn't, but unfortunately so far your actions have been as follows:
1.) Asked for the QT to the dead thread from one of the players (instead of coming to me)
2.) Slammed me in that thread and accused me of keeping the game going merely to reach some arbitrary statistics, as well as questioned why I took on the game in the first place (instead of coming to me privately)
3.) Refused to respond to my responses to that post in any meaningful way, both in private and public.
4.) Came to this thread and gave requested feedback, and then completely stomped all over me with a very non-specific (but still hurtful) paragraph, the private response to which you have also ignored.
Like many folks, I generally stick around here for the mafia games anymore, and so how the folks in our mafia community feel towards me is very important to me. Everyone in this community looks up to you (including me) and while you have claimed you carry no special authority, the reality is that you actually do. There's a reason the player you asked for the Dead Thread QT gave it to you without question. Everyone looks up to you, and so when you make a broad statement that you and possibly a few others know my "true character" but you don't want to go into details, what exactly do you think that says to the people here?
I am very willing ... no ... eager to learn how in my interactions here I have offended you to the level that you make a distinction between who I seem to be and what my "true character" is. I would like to know not so that I can argue about you with it but so that I can own it if it's accurate, and adjust how I post and conduct myself as necessary, or to explain if it's a misunderstanding or something I already corrected ... but more than anything, I would like the chance to reconcile and start with a clean slate with you... because at the end of the day I don't want to be whomever that "true character of Drixx" person is you were referring to.
To the rest of the folks watching this, I apologize for my part in this drama. I am unsure what I did to warrant it, but I would very much like to resolve it, ideally in a way that allows TC and I to move forward as friends. It has been a long night as I talked with some folks on mumble and got a lot of great feedback and noted a lot of the things people had to say down, and it's been emotionally draining as I'm sure everyone can imagine being attacked by someone you look up to is never an enjoyable experience, but hopefully it will ultimately be one that resolves in a good and solid character-building way. Nobody is more aware than I of my many flaws.