OT: Days of our Lives aka the Beacon's Billboard

Baffingly, I got sorted into Gryffindor*). I always thought I was more Hufflepuff - not very bright, not very inventive, but loyal and reliable. But there you have it. Gryffindor. My sister got sorted into Gryffindor too. She wondered about that too. I told her it's because the Sorting Hat usually puts siblings in the same house, see also all those Weasleys.

My patronus, equally bafflingly, turned out to be a black swan. How cool is that? I had expected a dormouse or something more lame.

Don't shout Avada Kadavra to people! That's prohibited!



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Kestegs, I didn't know that the divorce had been confirmed, awesome stuff! I know that you've done some dating, but don't force the issue. I'm a young 24 year old and haven't dated for 4 (maybe 5? I think 4 haha) years now, I've just been focusing on the things that really make me happy, studying and killing demons. It might enrich your life, but never feel like you have to have a partner for life to be fulfilling.

Her father sounds like a ****. Is he even an electrician? I mean, at least he might get electrocuted, right? I know nothing about taxes but it sounds complicated :p

Regarding the big change, are you pregnant? Again? Pregstegs :O

Yes, it did finally! And I don't feel the need for someone so much, but I know I would enjoy the company of the right person.

He is an electrician, I used to work for him. But he is also most certainly a ****.

Sorry, they won't let me get pregnant anymore :(

I'm older than the both of you (and yes Kitteh, not just going grey but white, and those hairs feel more like cats whiskers.)

That's not all good news Kestegs but it does sound like you're in a much better place. Glad to hear that!

And surely, the good news he's alluding to is that's received a wonderful letter from Hogwarts and will start there this new year. Not sure where the Sorting Hat sorts electricians.

I am of course a Ravenclaw, my dear!

It's not all good news, but I'm okay with it. The meeting with the tax lawyer went well and I am somewhat hopeful for a good resolution, although it will take a lot of time.
 
Glad to hear you are doing relatively well, Kestegs, and that all of this has made this self-reflection, and the fact that you feel good about it, possible.
 
No tumour, which is good, but it was also the last explanation for my symptoms. So, back to the beginning :(
Ow, I know that feeling, to the point you nearly wished it was a tumour as that explained at least something. Not much worse than not knowing what it is, because that means you can't do anything. Sometimes knowing what it is still means you can't do anything but you then have the certainty of knowing what it is and that usually means you find a way to deal with it.
I hope they find something, even at the most ridiculous lead! And don't give up, even when you feel like it - doctors give up long before you do.
 
@kegs: depending on the lawyer's experience and your income for the past few years you should be fine. The IRS only seems to run down people that have insane amounts of back taxes (in my experience of learning in my Master's Program) The University of Denver runs a Low income Tax Payer clinic. I would suggest it if you didn't have a lawyer. Best of luck to you in everything.
 
@Kitteh: Thats both good and bad then, so more prodding, poking and blood letting in the future then?

Some bad news from me: My grandma from dad's side passed away this friday, she was 90 years old, it wasn't a great shock cause she was standing at the treshold for a while now, she was ready to go and be with her late husband. It will still be a loss but its better for her.
 
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I've been struggling to sleep for a couple of nights now and although I know why, I can't process it properly. As I mentioned in the Daily, I had a fun night with my lab partner last Friday. As it happens we are both very open people and not shy about discussing stuff, so whilst we were alone in the lab (10:30pm, most people have gone home), we got to discussing it and what we liked about it etc, I won't go into those details :p Anyway, her primary 'feedback' was that it was very enjoyable, but that I was, and I quote, 'cold as ice'. I checked, not cold to the touch, I was just cold. Now, I've known for years that my ability to process and express emotions is pretty much shredded to pieces, it's not hard to figure that out. However, I have a spontaneous and (to me at least) passionate night, and yet I still come across as cold. How can I partake in one of the most passionate, intimate and natural acts that humans have, and yet still be so cold? That bothers the hell out of me. I really thought that I had made progress, but seriously, that is just messed up. It's not like we are married for 20 years and the love has just gone, we spontaneously decided to do the tasty tango (I will never use that phrase again, I promise), and yet I am 'as cold as ice'. What the ****.
 
As you say yourself, it is a spontaneous act, and a very emotional one too. Just because she has a certain impression of it doesn't mean you haven't made progress.

I dunno how you brits are, but I dunno if I'd call someone cold as ice (even if they were) after sleeping with them, she's pretty cold herself in my opinion.
 
Well, it didn't offend me (I'm very much difficult to offend), but it bothers me. I'm not sure if I'm explaining it well, but she didn't offend me by saying it, it was more the concept of being cold during sex that bothers me. Like knowing you're fat compared to somebody calling you fat? :P I think that she said it only because she knows that I am aware of my issues, and that for me it wouldn't be offensive. She is also Greek, don't know what they are like culturally :P
 
I am all over the damned place. Tomorrow is my poster presentation and also grades day. I am currently on 94.3% gpa (4.24/4.5), and I need 95% for my PhD scholarship. I have three modules left to affect my gpa, 'Project Research Methods (literature review and presentation)' and 'Honours Project (thesis, lab performance and poster presentation)'. My supervisor doesn't realise it, but we can actually tell what grade we have for the literature review on our internal system, so I know that I have an A (4.0) over all for that module - anything which isn't an A+ (4.5) drops my gpa. Which means I have to get an A+ in my Honours Project module, which is also counted twice. I expect an A, but think I might get an A+ for my lab performance. So, my thesis grade and poster presentation (both tomorrow) have to be A+ or I am ****ed. Tomorrow will either send me on my way to an amazing PhD, or completely train wreck everything. On top of that, I have 6 masters offers, including the top 2 immunology and top 3 cancer science courses in the UK, and I can't financially afford to accept any of them. However, my parents want to give me the money to go and do it, but they also don't understand why I can't take their money. Although I guess that is my own fault for wanting to do it myself. My stomach is just knotted to hell and even my appetite has been messy the last few days, I'm having to force food, which really isn't normal for me. I feel like everything is just suddenly about to go to ****. Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh!
 
Not really sure how I feel just now. I had an appointment with my counsellor last night and we talked again about suicidality etc, she kept asking me if I can keep myself safe or if she needed to phone an ambulance. I kept saying yes and the plan was that I see her again tomorrow morning. Then she phoned this morning to say that after discussion with clinical staff, they’ve decided to contact my GP to get a crisis team involved, so I see them at 4pm today. She said that it doesn’t strictly mean that I will be in hospital, but I’m still really nervous. I don’t know what’s going to happen and hospital is not s place that I ever want to go again. I’m hoping that whatever they decide to do, they can keep it community based.
 
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